Its OK not to be OK


As I sat in the garden last month, with the trees in blossom , the birds singing and the sky an uninterrupted blue, I had the thought that this does not look like a global pandemic is supposed to look. Many have noted the strange contrast between Spring arriving in all its beauty in a world of sorrow and fear, and it almost seems wrong.

I have often written about the hope that the rhthym of the seasons brings, but that is not to deny or whitewash over the struggle and pain this virus has brought to many, in all sorts of different ways. By the time this is read, all being well, we may have moved to a new level and our lives may be a little more free, which will be a cause for celebration but we do also need to create a space to lament.

Lamenting is not popular in our society today, but we have a lot to learn from it. In a book I recently read, “Raging with compassion” by J Swinton, the author describes lament as a prayer that” takes the brokenness of human experience into the heart of God and demand that God answer.” It is a way of asking God the question why?  Why did this happen to our world, why did this happen to the ones I love, why is this happening to me? Many people have been finding the Psalms a real help in the past few months, putting into words the things they felt and wanted to say, for the Psalmists do not choose their words carefully, there is no political correctness, but an outpouring of the heart of man.  

“My heart is in anguish within me;

The terrors of death have fallen upon me .

Fear and trembling have beset me :

Horror has overwhelmed me .” Psalm 55 vs 4-6

For all that however they are deeply hopeful. The Psalmists cry out in present suffering, but have hope and faith that things will not always be this way, that God loves us and will keep his promises.

As our community begins to move on from this, it will be important not to deny what has happened and how we have felt. Real healing will begin when we can look at our suffering, at the sorrow of this world yet not let it overwhelm us, real peace will begin when we can  move on in hope for better things, but recognising  that even amidst the pain of this world, we are loved by God. 

The psalmist finishes Psalm 55 with the words:

“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you;”

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